No name!

Well I have no idea what to name this blog its going to be more like that last one! ramblings

Lets start with bad things have been happening....well for the past 3 weekends except last weekend its been SNOWING!!!!!!!!!!! now im all for snow but damn its been coming like crazy they say we only get a dusting this time well its not a dusting...dusting to me means light snow on the ground well this is more like a dusting of 3inches...and since this has been happening my husband has been out of work, he works in concrete and during the winter there anit much work...which SUCKS he dont want to do anything else dont know why but ugh...so he has been out of work for 3 weeks almost 4...I hope it changes soon im getting tired of doing without
ok good news I put in at alot of places well I got a call from a new store that is opening in my area, its a discount food store, I gave him my mamas number incase I couldnt answer the phone here...well he called her u know I put that app in yesterday online and he called me what can u say good luck! lol well he called her and she was out so she gave him my home number and ive been waiting but no call, im hoping he will call 2morrow hope hope hope bc i was saying all day today and yesterday that I hope he calls and BAM he calls idk I think I will like a job like this now mind you it has something to do with cashier but im sure I can handle it, im just going to have to stop worrying about what others are saying and just do the best I can... now heres my thing with cashier ok lets just face it i cant count change fast enough i know i know its grade school where u learn that but at the time I cared more about friends than i did about school even in high school now look where that got me...
you know if I had this life to do over I would change alot of things...I would be smarter about the things i do and would have chose my friend wisely...

I hope I get this job...

if you didnt know by now I have a cooking blog i only have a few ones up there but im working on my book so I can post more see how I do it is I sit and write them in my notebook so when im able to get them on the blog they will be there and all I have to do is copy it on there you know what I mean  that way im not sitting here thinking of every detail that is SOO annoying...well I think its a good idea anyway

ok well ill update later im tried of typing and talking lol ttygl (talk to you guys later)

alot of stuff in one

Ok so i anit wrote a blog in a while...

so nothing much to make of an update nothing really going on here just same stuff...im not really into making videos I mean I want to make them but something is always holding me back!
I have got into cooking tho, Ive been cooking alot lately mostly mexican stuff tho...but its all in all bc I love mexican food...im going to try and make it a must to post blogs I really need to talk to someone about the things I think and stuff that I dont really want to tell people I know, I know im going to start carrying a book with me so I can write stuff in it to post and things...
but anyway back to the videos I really really want to make videos but seeing how my labtop is out at the moment and I dont have the money to pay to get it fix so I have to wait and use this desktop but hey im not knocking it but it would be great if I could just take my labtop everywhere with me and if I think of something i can just type it down you know! but on well im pretty sure it has a virus and well thats $80 so it will just be sitting on its little table until I get the money to give away to fix ahh I so wish I can find a job

so with that on to my next topic JOBS i tell you they are a needle in a hay stack you find one you want and then it just like goes away like damn it took me weeks or months to find you and then WAM ur gone...for someone who was dumb and dropped out of school and hasnt worked many jobs in the past it sucks its like they want someone but when you go for the interveiw they say well ill call you i  have blah blah blah i mean come on I need a job you need someone so please give me a chance they act like you are asking for new house and they are trying to deside if u can afford the house payments i mean come on if im there that means I need a job I dont see why the offer those questions on there online apps
I seems like they are just there to judge you on what kind of person you are, AHH idk its just alot to take it at the moment, they dont understand
and everyone is like well you dont have a job so i cant help you well hell dont u think I want a job,
thats what is mostly stressing me out!

ok so on to the next
Im trying to get my ged but I cant seem for the life of me make the time to get on there, hince why I havent made a video or even wrote a blog, I started this blog so I can get my thoughts out but guess im going to have to try harder...to make this work!

oh well i  have a few videos that I want to make so i guess I better get to the and get to my school work also then I have to clean house and make dinner! ugh this is my day to day its always the same never changed! im hoping I can get a webcam so I can start making videos easier but im not settleing for a busted cam I want one thats desent you know!

ok well im really gone now..see you guys 2morrow

Dec 21 2009

Ok so there is 3 days til christmas WHAT i mean its flu by SOOO fast, its just like a week ago was thanksgiving....its crazy how time goes by SO fast and its feels like you were sleeping and wake up 2 months later and wonder where it went...

So things are going good here, I posted a video well make that 2 videos on youtube, Im happy that I got to, I plan on makeing more, its nice to interact with other people, so that you can get their views on things, I feel that if you talk to family or friends they just suger coat things to make you feel better, and its nice to meet others who like the same things or feel the same way about things as you do,

So christmas is in a few days really im not ready for it, things just wasnt great this year job wise, my husband just hasnt got much work so I didnt get to go christmas shopping this  yr you know in my family it makes me feel bad bc they have money to do things, and buy everyone something, I just dont feel like going anywhere, I dont have money like they do...and it feels like to me that they show off like they are better, you know I already feel like crap bc of it I dont need to feel worse,
Its not like I choose not to buy its that I cant, if I did then I would not be able to pay my bills, its not FAIR but nothing I can do about it I guess...I just dont like having to feel like crap bc i cant buy anyone nothing, im suppose to go to my grandmas house on the 24th I dont think im going
You know christmas is about family and the lord and I think people have just lost the REAL meaning, they think its all about shopping and spending money and going broke so that you are paying for those things that you put on your credit cards the whole new year, while it might be nice to see all those smiling faces but sometimes u should look behind it to see the frowning ones....its just not fair it really anit...this is the frist yr I cant do anything and I just feel like crap...see my husband has not got to work this week either it iced over the weekend and there was still some left over so no work today...and also bc it was below 20 degrees so we are guessing no work for 2morrow either and wedesday as well so that means nothing bc christmas is thursday and friday and then the weekend which he dont work so he want be going back to work til monday next week...which just sucks so that mean no money this week but ugh whatever...im just so over it...well I guess thats all i have to talk about now, I dont want to worry no more about anything...

Until next time....

So Today!

So today im going to and mean it im going to make a video, you know i dont understand why its so hard for me to even make one...i just dont understand what takes up my time, you know I could just be lazy yeah thats it im lazy LOL!!

Im hoping to get one up today by the evening, hoping to be uploading it while cooking dinner! I will probley start a new blog with things I cook, I have been reading cooking vlogs on here and would like to try my hand at a few! I know how to cook alot of things sometimes I just sit in the kitchen and think of ideas and just throw it together, but most of the time I think of easy way like ok ill go online and look up something that I want to make and then start taking out things and adding my own, bc not every state has the same products,

you know another thing stopping me from making videos is cleaning I do alot of that everyday im cleaning or doing something! but you wouldnt think that by my room lol its always a mess idk but I was thinking of redoing it, my room is so small tho and i share it with my husband and it suppose to be the master bedroom ugh but its so small! so anyway I thought since I clean alot and know ALOT of things about cleaning, I would add that to my video channel, I could help other people with cleaning problems or ideas

Im just not that into makeup anymore i mean dont get me wrong I LOVE it and im still addicted but since my husband is the only one working I cant go out and by makeup everyday or week so ive been thinking of making the best of it, I dont want to get rid my my channel and I was thinking about making a new one but that is in the back of my mind right now im going to post it on my makeup channel and if things dont go good on there then i will think about making another youtube channel not sure just thinking

im also hoping when i get this blogging thing figured out I will be able to stay on topic like most bloggers do, like only talk about one thing a day or in each blog...im just now getting the hang of it I had a blog b4 and it wasnt a very good blog I just didnt have anything to talk about but now that im starting to think while im doing the dishes or vaccuming or washing clothes i just think about what I want to talk to you guys about or what I want to make a video about, Im hoping to get all my cleaning done today so that I can make a video,
the big problem is when my husband comes up im with him until we go to bed...i might have to start doing the videos while he is sleeping or something, you know its really hard when u have 3 other people in the house while you are trying to do them, you are scared or dont want to speak out where they can hear you,
my husband of course knows that I make the videos but I just dont like to do it in front of him, im sure you can relate...

ok so from here on out im going to start my cooking blog ill post it in a post so you can check it out I already have my first post! so look out for that...

thanks for listening to me ramble about nothing LOL

UGH

I can never do what I plan to do!

I planned on making a video and posted it 2night but yet again I had a bunch of things to do 1st I had to clean my house lay something out for dinner, then I had to get ready go with my mother to pay my light bill THEN we stopped by verzion where I got me a new phone, I have always had a camera phone and it SUCKS that I dont ugh but Im going to work my way up I guess, anyway after that I came home and started cooking while dinner was cooking I was going to make that video well yet again something knocked me out of it, I started messing with my new phone like a kid in the candy store, well 1st i set the ringtone that I liked then I started adding the numbers from my old phone to it, then i was playing around ugh idk but then i got side tracked and supper was done so i had to eat!!! then after that I had to clean the kitchen then my show was on so i paused it and took a shower dried my hair then started watching my show ugh and 2morrow my best friend is having her baby so ill be there with her most of the day OMG and then!!!!!!! wedesday I have to take my grandma to the store SO MAYBE just MAYBE I can make a video either wedesday night or thursday eveining! and now im TIRED wow seeing it on here as i type make it look like a lot but its good i like staying busy I just want to make a video for you guys im ready to come back and chat it up! lol

SO I hope things are slower wedesday idk i might just record one 2morrow night im so tired right now im not going to be able to record it now, I just wanted to post a blog letting u guys know ok dokie im done to bed talk to you guys 2morrow!!!

New change

Hey everybodie

So I know its been awhile since i posted a blog or a video on youtube well thats about to change I just needed some time to think about what I wanted to talk about and share with you guys SO in the next coming days I will be posting videos on youtube here are a few videos that I already plan on coming out with

My new intro/im back video
a few hair style videos
a christmas makeup video like the makeup ill be wearing on chirstmas

and a new change that will come is that im going to be vlogging there now so i will have a vlog up coming soon i will talk more about that in my new intro/im back video, Im just not that much into makeup right now i guess you can say I hit a spot but I have not been wearing it much either and when I do its just everyday type of stuff so YEAH! im exicted to be coming back and look forward to making them so you are going to see a way new way im going to start making videos im also going to just start winging them also so im not going to keep recording them over and over just to get it right im just going to wing it and post it
bc its my channel and I should not have to worry about being perfect! but anyway

im also going to try and keep this updated with the things that go on in my life bc I just dont have no one to talk to except my hubby and i only can tell him so much you know...so look for that also i will prob put them in a video too but just dont know, i need a way to vent and ive thought about this and just think its the best way

so if you have any requests you can just message me here OR on youtube or you can just email me
Kellym28081@yahoo.com

my 1st video will be on monday 12/07/09 so look for that YAY glad to be back

What is up with MEN!

So what is up with me?

They like to leave you at home alone for hrs at a time, and think when they come home you are suppose to be kissing their feet and have supper on the table!

well if you would be home at a desent hr or when you told me u were coming then I would have fixed u something....

ALSO they think they can do whatever and then come home and u will give them some... well not this white girl!

I use to give into my husband when were dating but see you have them when you are married once ur married they anit going nowhere belive that they probley say Im leaving or whatever but they want they are just talking crap bc if they wanted to leave they wouldnt have married you!

dont let them fool you!

another thing they do well some of them but all of them do it at some point!

like when you are in bed ready to go to sleep or sitting at the computer relaxing after a long day and they call you to go to the store or they need something and they are just bugging the CRAP out of u til u do it

and they think u should just get up and take them ugh thats not fair to you!

well here today im stopping ALL!!!! of that im not doing that anymore now i know ur suppose to help ur husband and be there for him but shit he takes advantage... so idk where I was going with all this but im just so fed up with men thinking they can treat us anyway they want and we listen

well this girl is TIRED and i mean TIRED so change is coming and here to stay

ill tell yall some storys about us in the next blog and belive me they some crazy ones

Ok well im off here for now its 11:15pm here going to bed!