Ok so there is 3 days til christmas WHAT i mean its flu by SOOO fast, its just like a week ago was thanksgiving....its crazy how time goes by SO fast and its feels like you were sleeping and wake up 2 months later and wonder where it went...
So things are going good here, I posted a video well make that 2 videos on youtube, Im happy that I got to, I plan on makeing more, its nice to interact with other people, so that you can get their views on things, I feel that if you talk to family or friends they just suger coat things to make you feel better, and its nice to meet others who like the same things or feel the same way about things as you do,
So christmas is in a few days really im not ready for it, things just wasnt great this year job wise, my husband just hasnt got much work so I didnt get to go christmas shopping this yr you know in my family it makes me feel bad bc they have money to do things, and buy everyone something, I just dont feel like going anywhere, I dont have money like they do...and it feels like to me that they show off like they are better, you know I already feel like crap bc of it I dont need to feel worse,
Its not like I choose not to buy its that I cant, if I did then I would not be able to pay my bills, its not FAIR but nothing I can do about it I guess...I just dont like having to feel like crap bc i cant buy anyone nothing, im suppose to go to my grandmas house on the 24th I dont think im going
You know christmas is about family and the lord and I think people have just lost the REAL meaning, they think its all about shopping and spending money and going broke so that you are paying for those things that you put on your credit cards the whole new year, while it might be nice to see all those smiling faces but sometimes u should look behind it to see the frowning ones....its just not fair it really anit...this is the frist yr I cant do anything and I just feel like crap...see my husband has not got to work this week either it iced over the weekend and there was still some left over so no work today...and also bc it was below 20 degrees so we are guessing no work for 2morrow either and wedesday as well so that means nothing bc christmas is thursday and friday and then the weekend which he dont work so he want be going back to work til monday next week...which just sucks so that mean no money this week but ugh whatever...im just so over it...well I guess thats all i have to talk about now, I dont want to worry no more about anything...
Until next time....
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