Ive sat here thinking and going thru days thinking one how I can write in my blogs I just come to terms of what I want to say or how I want to say it! its annoying bc I want to write and share things that I do with who ever reads which I dont think is much...ive started taking a note pad around with me to keep up with what im thinking about, its not just the blogs its the videos on youtube as well I cant seem to get into it anymore, I dont think I want to do much makeup bc I dont wear it that much, and I dont wear anything big just the norm...
this summer has really flown by its almost aug I cant belive how fast its gone the 4th of july came quick I couldnt belive it...we grilled out and had a fun time watching the people who live around here shoot off fireworks...it was nice!
well like i said im sure I will come to terms and get things together so that my blogs will be better!
Thanks for reading! I think I like this for my font its much nicer!
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Friday, June 18, 2010
Just cit chat
Im not even sure if anyone reads this blog....it says i have 4 followers but idk if they even read what I have to say I know im not a everyday blogger but to tell u the truth there is nothing in my life exciting that happens, i do the same stuff every day monday thru friday and sometimes my saturday and sundays are diffrent but its just the same old stuff I thought about just writing what i think I also tried to do cooking but in real i just cant figure out how i want it to be on the blog and when I start to think about it just gets me thinking that oh lord this is going to take so much time i have to do this do that put this put that wait for this and well its just to much ok like the cooking i have to cook it take pictures type out the blog post the pics and well its very time concuming but listen im going to give it one more try im very bored on the internet i need something to do a reason to get on
I have facebook and youtube but it gets boring when there is nothing to do idk but when i figure this out I will post a blog soon! until then
oh and if you read this blog please follow and let me know at least I wouldnt think im talking to the air!
I have facebook and youtube but it gets boring when there is nothing to do idk but when i figure this out I will post a blog soon! until then
oh and if you read this blog please follow and let me know at least I wouldnt think im talking to the air!
Friday, April 9, 2010
Needing a break!
I just dont understand why I have to give up things I want to do! ive got where im scared to go anywhere when my husband is home, I know i shouldnt be like that, but if somebodie calls me and he is here i dont go but im willing to go when he is at work! I know alot of people get mad when they call or ask me to go somewhere with them but i just cant help to stay here, Im scared if I leave I will come back to him drunk or have a bunch of people here! or not be here at all, it sucks having to be like this, everytime i say that I want to change it I never do, ive just been so stressed with bills and trying to find a job and everything else, I just want to scream, I guess im going to have to get out of this bc if I dont nobodie is going to want to do anything with me, SUCKS I know but i cant help it! if anybodie is out there reading this give me some advice, when i get over my allergys i will be making videos again, I hope anyway things have just been crazy! i want to make videos but just cant bring my self out of this depression stage but its got most to do with allergys they are not as bad as the other times but they are still bad, well i just think i need a break from all this and i have no way out, ive thought about going to the park but dang my allergys have got me down im just so blah that i just want to sleep, but im starting to feel a little better since ive been drinking water, ive been on the water diet for about 5 days and im liking it ive not drunk any sodas, ive been eatting the same foods but just smaller in the plate also what im going to do is start buying fruit and veggies(not in a can ) Im going to walk ive already started last weekend but i just want to make it an everyday thing, so that ive got it down ill keep my blog updated and let u know when ive started and got everything under control
Saturday, April 3, 2010
What if?
While im waiting for my peel off mask to dry I think I would write a blog, and since I have the time while my husband is watching Americans Most Wanted!
I was thinking today what if? what if I wasnt in the place im in now, what if I didnt marry my husband? what if I would have changed the road that leads me to where I am now? All these questions run through my head when im bored and just thinking, dont get me wrong I love my life even tho it might now go the way I want it to or my husband is mean that day or what ever the case may be, but the lord doesnt give us things we cant handle we can get through anything with him in our hearts,
I was on facebook the other day and a friend posted a video that got me thinking I mean REALLY thinking, it was about not telling others about the lord and how he helps u, well this boy was christan and he didnt even tell his friend about the lord, I will find the video and post a link to it so u can watch it is REALLY a video that makes u think, you know I dont go to church like i should I anit been to church in a few yrs but you know you dont have to go to church to prise the lord, but it is better so you can learn new things, I am hoping we can go in the morning but idk well I do know why im just lazy, but I know in my heart that I love the lord and I know he is there for me everyday and when I need him, all I have to do is talk to him and he will lead me through the hard times, and the worst times
so that video is what got me thinking what if? I know im in the place where I should be bc if I wasnt where I should be then I wouldnt be here, my husband is my hero he came in my life when I was going down the wrong rds and he teaches me things and he loves me even tho people tell me that he is no good, but they dont REALLY know him like I do, he is there for me when others are not, and I can say that he loves me! we are very happen, now we are no perfect and nobodie is, but I do know that we love each other,
ok brb the peel has hardened and it hard for me to move my face lol
ok back!
so thats really all I have to say! just think when u start asking your self that question, what if? just remember u are where u should be!
If anyone out there reads these then thanks so much for taking the time out of ur day to read my blog, I know it anit much but im learning, and getting this writing under control so thanks again and hope to see ur comment soon! and happy easter!
I was thinking today what if? what if I wasnt in the place im in now, what if I didnt marry my husband? what if I would have changed the road that leads me to where I am now? All these questions run through my head when im bored and just thinking, dont get me wrong I love my life even tho it might now go the way I want it to or my husband is mean that day or what ever the case may be, but the lord doesnt give us things we cant handle we can get through anything with him in our hearts,
I was on facebook the other day and a friend posted a video that got me thinking I mean REALLY thinking, it was about not telling others about the lord and how he helps u, well this boy was christan and he didnt even tell his friend about the lord, I will find the video and post a link to it so u can watch it is REALLY a video that makes u think, you know I dont go to church like i should I anit been to church in a few yrs but you know you dont have to go to church to prise the lord, but it is better so you can learn new things, I am hoping we can go in the morning but idk well I do know why im just lazy, but I know in my heart that I love the lord and I know he is there for me everyday and when I need him, all I have to do is talk to him and he will lead me through the hard times, and the worst times
so that video is what got me thinking what if? I know im in the place where I should be bc if I wasnt where I should be then I wouldnt be here, my husband is my hero he came in my life when I was going down the wrong rds and he teaches me things and he loves me even tho people tell me that he is no good, but they dont REALLY know him like I do, he is there for me when others are not, and I can say that he loves me! we are very happen, now we are no perfect and nobodie is, but I do know that we love each other,
ok brb the peel has hardened and it hard for me to move my face lol
ok back!
so thats really all I have to say! just think when u start asking your self that question, what if? just remember u are where u should be!
If anyone out there reads these then thanks so much for taking the time out of ur day to read my blog, I know it anit much but im learning, and getting this writing under control so thanks again and hope to see ur comment soon! and happy easter!
Thursday, April 1, 2010
YES im seeing some light!
Well he got the job!!! YES!!!! do you know how that makes me feel? relived to say the least!
and he started working last week, I couldnt be more happy, but you know when something good happens something bad its not far behind following,
Since he wasnt working for that period of time, the rent and most the bills slipped mostly the rent, and see here where I live if you dont pay ur rent by the 19th they are at the court on the 20th, and really these places are not all that, but its a place to live and ive got cheap rent and if it wasnt for the other things I would only be paying rent and lights, nothing else but anyway so yeah the rent got behind I mean i was paying it just a little at a time, and see I have a bad thing of not wanting to deal with people, idk what it is but I cant deal with people face to face, OK I know what it is it has to do with my self asteam but thats another blog in its self, SOOO anyway yeah they go to court on the 20th of EVERY month even if u talk to them and u are already on the list, u are there and the only way to get off is to pay, and SO it came my time to get on the list even tho i went up there and paid some on it and talked to her about it, didnt do much anyway so now I have to deal with that 2morrow and see what I have to do, idk if I have to still go or if they drop the claim since I paid ugh i cant stand this stuff, i guess we will all know 2morrow ill let u know what I have to do 2morrow
in other news I still anit found a job, UGH its really stressing me out that all my friends are finding work but me, you know I had a interview at a daycare and I didnt even get to go, that sucked but my husband cant help he has to work really if it wasnt for him then we couldnt keep things going, but I would like to work too, its really not fair that he can get up in the mornings and get ready and go out and see people and work while I have to stay here and clean and sit here looking at the 4 walls I mean I know I have TV and internet and a radio and all that but dang it gets so boring and having to deal with people coming around asking for my husband or calling, and watching all the people here leave for work, its just so annoying, ughhhh.....that I have to deal with all the drama and he gets to get be kinda care free!
No good news really only that he is working now, you know its harder for women to get jobs now unless you are in school for yrs and have ALOT and I mean ALOT of experiance so thats all I have to talk about, I will finish my other blog later and let you know whats going on with all the other things going on here...its never a dull moment let me tell you!!!
and he started working last week, I couldnt be more happy, but you know when something good happens something bad its not far behind following,
Since he wasnt working for that period of time, the rent and most the bills slipped mostly the rent, and see here where I live if you dont pay ur rent by the 19th they are at the court on the 20th, and really these places are not all that, but its a place to live and ive got cheap rent and if it wasnt for the other things I would only be paying rent and lights, nothing else but anyway so yeah the rent got behind I mean i was paying it just a little at a time, and see I have a bad thing of not wanting to deal with people, idk what it is but I cant deal with people face to face, OK I know what it is it has to do with my self asteam but thats another blog in its self, SOOO anyway yeah they go to court on the 20th of EVERY month even if u talk to them and u are already on the list, u are there and the only way to get off is to pay, and SO it came my time to get on the list even tho i went up there and paid some on it and talked to her about it, didnt do much anyway so now I have to deal with that 2morrow and see what I have to do, idk if I have to still go or if they drop the claim since I paid ugh i cant stand this stuff, i guess we will all know 2morrow ill let u know what I have to do 2morrow
in other news I still anit found a job, UGH its really stressing me out that all my friends are finding work but me, you know I had a interview at a daycare and I didnt even get to go, that sucked but my husband cant help he has to work really if it wasnt for him then we couldnt keep things going, but I would like to work too, its really not fair that he can get up in the mornings and get ready and go out and see people and work while I have to stay here and clean and sit here looking at the 4 walls I mean I know I have TV and internet and a radio and all that but dang it gets so boring and having to deal with people coming around asking for my husband or calling, and watching all the people here leave for work, its just so annoying, ughhhh.....that I have to deal with all the drama and he gets to get be kinda care free!
No good news really only that he is working now, you know its harder for women to get jobs now unless you are in school for yrs and have ALOT and I mean ALOT of experiance so thats all I have to talk about, I will finish my other blog later and let you know whats going on with all the other things going on here...its never a dull moment let me tell you!!!
Friday, February 12, 2010
No name!
Well I have no idea what to name this blog its going to be more like that last one! ramblings
Lets start with bad things have been happening....well for the past 3 weekends except last weekend its been SNOWING!!!!!!!!!!! now im all for snow but damn its been coming like crazy they say we only get a dusting this time well its not a dusting...dusting to me means light snow on the ground well this is more like a dusting of 3inches...and since this has been happening my husband has been out of work, he works in concrete and during the winter there anit much work...which SUCKS he dont want to do anything else dont know why but ugh...so he has been out of work for 3 weeks almost 4...I hope it changes soon im getting tired of doing without
ok good news I put in at alot of places well I got a call from a new store that is opening in my area, its a discount food store, I gave him my mamas number incase I couldnt answer the phone here...well he called her u know I put that app in yesterday online and he called me what can u say good luck! lol well he called her and she was out so she gave him my home number and ive been waiting but no call, im hoping he will call 2morrow hope hope hope bc i was saying all day today and yesterday that I hope he calls and BAM he calls idk I think I will like a job like this now mind you it has something to do with cashier but im sure I can handle it, im just going to have to stop worrying about what others are saying and just do the best I can... now heres my thing with cashier ok lets just face it i cant count change fast enough i know i know its grade school where u learn that but at the time I cared more about friends than i did about school even in high school now look where that got me...
you know if I had this life to do over I would change alot of things...I would be smarter about the things i do and would have chose my friend wisely...
I hope I get this job...
if you didnt know by now I have a cooking blog i only have a few ones up there but im working on my book so I can post more see how I do it is I sit and write them in my notebook so when im able to get them on the blog they will be there and all I have to do is copy it on there you know what I mean that way im not sitting here thinking of every detail that is SOO annoying...well I think its a good idea anyway
ok well ill update later im tried of typing and talking lol ttygl (talk to you guys later)
Lets start with bad things have been happening....well for the past 3 weekends except last weekend its been SNOWING!!!!!!!!!!! now im all for snow but damn its been coming like crazy they say we only get a dusting this time well its not a dusting...dusting to me means light snow on the ground well this is more like a dusting of 3inches...and since this has been happening my husband has been out of work, he works in concrete and during the winter there anit much work...which SUCKS he dont want to do anything else dont know why but ugh...so he has been out of work for 3 weeks almost 4...I hope it changes soon im getting tired of doing without
ok good news I put in at alot of places well I got a call from a new store that is opening in my area, its a discount food store, I gave him my mamas number incase I couldnt answer the phone here...well he called her u know I put that app in yesterday online and he called me what can u say good luck! lol well he called her and she was out so she gave him my home number and ive been waiting but no call, im hoping he will call 2morrow hope hope hope bc i was saying all day today and yesterday that I hope he calls and BAM he calls idk I think I will like a job like this now mind you it has something to do with cashier but im sure I can handle it, im just going to have to stop worrying about what others are saying and just do the best I can... now heres my thing with cashier ok lets just face it i cant count change fast enough i know i know its grade school where u learn that but at the time I cared more about friends than i did about school even in high school now look where that got me...
you know if I had this life to do over I would change alot of things...I would be smarter about the things i do and would have chose my friend wisely...
I hope I get this job...
if you didnt know by now I have a cooking blog i only have a few ones up there but im working on my book so I can post more see how I do it is I sit and write them in my notebook so when im able to get them on the blog they will be there and all I have to do is copy it on there you know what I mean that way im not sitting here thinking of every detail that is SOO annoying...well I think its a good idea anyway
ok well ill update later im tried of typing and talking lol ttygl (talk to you guys later)
Monday, January 25, 2010
alot of stuff in one
Ok so i anit wrote a blog in a while...
so nothing much to make of an update nothing really going on here just same stuff...im not really into making videos I mean I want to make them but something is always holding me back!
I have got into cooking tho, Ive been cooking alot lately mostly mexican stuff tho...but its all in all bc I love mexican food...im going to try and make it a must to post blogs I really need to talk to someone about the things I think and stuff that I dont really want to tell people I know, I know im going to start carrying a book with me so I can write stuff in it to post and things...
but anyway back to the videos I really really want to make videos but seeing how my labtop is out at the moment and I dont have the money to pay to get it fix so I have to wait and use this desktop but hey im not knocking it but it would be great if I could just take my labtop everywhere with me and if I think of something i can just type it down you know! but on well im pretty sure it has a virus and well thats $80 so it will just be sitting on its little table until I get the money to give away to fix ahh I so wish I can find a job
so with that on to my next topic JOBS i tell you they are a needle in a hay stack you find one you want and then it just like goes away like damn it took me weeks or months to find you and then WAM ur gone...for someone who was dumb and dropped out of school and hasnt worked many jobs in the past it sucks its like they want someone but when you go for the interveiw they say well ill call you i have blah blah blah i mean come on I need a job you need someone so please give me a chance they act like you are asking for new house and they are trying to deside if u can afford the house payments i mean come on if im there that means I need a job I dont see why the offer those questions on there online apps
I seems like they are just there to judge you on what kind of person you are, AHH idk its just alot to take it at the moment, they dont understand
and everyone is like well you dont have a job so i cant help you well hell dont u think I want a job,
thats what is mostly stressing me out!
ok so on to the next
Im trying to get my ged but I cant seem for the life of me make the time to get on there, hince why I havent made a video or even wrote a blog, I started this blog so I can get my thoughts out but guess im going to have to try harder...to make this work!
oh well i have a few videos that I want to make so i guess I better get to the and get to my school work also then I have to clean house and make dinner! ugh this is my day to day its always the same never changed! im hoping I can get a webcam so I can start making videos easier but im not settleing for a busted cam I want one thats desent you know!
ok well im really gone now..see you guys 2morrow
so nothing much to make of an update nothing really going on here just same stuff...im not really into making videos I mean I want to make them but something is always holding me back!
I have got into cooking tho, Ive been cooking alot lately mostly mexican stuff tho...but its all in all bc I love mexican food...im going to try and make it a must to post blogs I really need to talk to someone about the things I think and stuff that I dont really want to tell people I know, I know im going to start carrying a book with me so I can write stuff in it to post and things...
but anyway back to the videos I really really want to make videos but seeing how my labtop is out at the moment and I dont have the money to pay to get it fix so I have to wait and use this desktop but hey im not knocking it but it would be great if I could just take my labtop everywhere with me and if I think of something i can just type it down you know! but on well im pretty sure it has a virus and well thats $80 so it will just be sitting on its little table until I get the money to give away to fix ahh I so wish I can find a job
so with that on to my next topic JOBS i tell you they are a needle in a hay stack you find one you want and then it just like goes away like damn it took me weeks or months to find you and then WAM ur gone...for someone who was dumb and dropped out of school and hasnt worked many jobs in the past it sucks its like they want someone but when you go for the interveiw they say well ill call you i have blah blah blah i mean come on I need a job you need someone so please give me a chance they act like you are asking for new house and they are trying to deside if u can afford the house payments i mean come on if im there that means I need a job I dont see why the offer those questions on there online apps
I seems like they are just there to judge you on what kind of person you are, AHH idk its just alot to take it at the moment, they dont understand
and everyone is like well you dont have a job so i cant help you well hell dont u think I want a job,
thats what is mostly stressing me out!
ok so on to the next
Im trying to get my ged but I cant seem for the life of me make the time to get on there, hince why I havent made a video or even wrote a blog, I started this blog so I can get my thoughts out but guess im going to have to try harder...to make this work!
oh well i have a few videos that I want to make so i guess I better get to the and get to my school work also then I have to clean house and make dinner! ugh this is my day to day its always the same never changed! im hoping I can get a webcam so I can start making videos easier but im not settleing for a busted cam I want one thats desent you know!
ok well im really gone now..see you guys 2morrow
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